I miss High school friends! :D

Sigh. Time flies. Let's start off my post with my emotion. I guess nowadays my emotion is very unstable. I can be so happy and get so mad and pissed off the other minute. I am stressed, I guess. When my parents talk to me, I feel so annoyed and eventually, I ignored them when I am not in a good mood. I felt wrong :( I wasn't like this before! Starting from last year, I at times, will be in silent mode thinking about problems I'm facing and I admit, I have suicidal thoughts lol. 

Well, I also don't know what problem I'm having haha. Somehow, I'm living a healthy and wonderful lifestyle and still, I have all these nonsense thoughts. Not as if I were bullied, tortured or abused lol. I'ma healthy eh! I know, I am kinda worrying nothing for nothing? I should get rid of all this! God, why can't my mind just stop thinking about many problems and start worrying about LITERALLY EVERYTHING! I would worry about my shoes, my nails, hair, homework, books and so on lol. Gila -.-

Anyway, I miss my high school friends already! Especially shin wei! :D Just web-cammed with her on Sunday and I'm missing her already! She looks so adorable still! I miss pinching her cheeks, hitting her boobs HAHA. Oh, will dinner with Janice @ Victoria station this friday night. Yums :)) I miss her so badly also! Din't see her since the last day she work at my dad's place together with me! >.<

She din't know I print screen this :x

Missing my long long nails!

Alive, still.

It has been so long since the last time I wrote in. This place used to be where I do my spitting, rambling where I express myself the best. Somehow, I think I've successfully overcome depression and still, trying to cope with my panic attack. Life hasn't been easy with depression. My mood changes all the time, sometimes I am happy, sometimes I am quiet and some other time I am depressed or sad. Well, let's say, everybody is laughing happily and the other minute, I am quiet, thinking about something that pull me behind. Anxiety attach, HAHA! I have this since I was a little kid. I am always panic, even over small little things! When panic attacks, my body will start shivering terribly. No joke! I can't even speak or laugh nor anything!

Life was so sucky having to encounter this every single day. Anyway, I thought that a person should always be thankful for everything then happiness follows. Today, I am feeling glad, happy and contented for who I am and what I am. The feeling of insecure and disappointment should be abolished. College started one week ago and I would say that it was so-so only. But the people there were quite friendly, not to mention a beautiful lady I met during orientation who was so friendly and bubbly :) She is trustworthy and not selfish kinda person. Oh yes, I always judge people in the early episode -.-

There were people who I just can't stare for even a second, they were sacrastic, arrogant and these people usually will laugh off at people's ass, you see ----

Study skill assignment! Timetable, weekly to-do list and semester timetable! I did two and was quite satisfy with it until my classmate Navin told me that marks will be counted based on the assingment given. So, no choice, I want to redo everything just to make myself happy in order not to loss the feeling of 'secure'. Good night people.

Love and regards,
Nai Hung.